coming to end of 2013

this year seems to pass a tad too fast.. its a dilemma whether i wan to pass this fast or not...

being busy month by month brought me to a startling realisation we are coming to an end of 2013..
which also means im crossing to another age of life @_@

being in a FMCG environment is ironically no joke.. everything moves so fast that now the year is moving equally fast..
month after month chasing after reporting deadlines, submission deadlines and launches to care about..
now i know that a manager used to tell mi she can stay tis long with FMCG company is not entirely because she loves that company but because she barely has the time to tink how long she has been with this company...

nevertheless, even said that, i dont tink i can go back to a "normal" company after being exposed to FMCG.. HAHA, its self sadist..

and yes, i haven been blogging AT ALL... barely finding the time to blog about life.. every minute is spent on trying to catch up with work (sounds boring) and recent years catching up with all the long time frens..
by rite all these catching up should warrant some photos update... but i find myself getting lazier to bring out my G12 during each gathering.. less said on uploading the photos.. IT IS SUCH A WASTE of a good camera.....

so now this is a reali random post... for e sake of a fren too since she got no updated blogs to read liao.. hopefully i can sum up a long lengthy post on my boring 2013 life soon...

My thoughts for 2012 and a HAPPY NEW 2013

actually wanted to do a post at the end of e year as a round up for 2012 for myself..
as usual, found myself with no such time to do so..

doing it on my bday itself i guess sld b pretty much the same..

first of all, a happy new year to all my loved ones and for everyone who has crossed n mark urself in my path be it good or bad...

2012 has reali passed by in a flash.. perhaps this is how it works when you gets older each year.. the time juz slips past u.. its always easy for ppl to say make full use of your time.. but frankly i have nv felt i have made full use of my time at all all these years..

2012 had been an eventful year with a lot of turmoil feelings running haywire in the first half of e year.. i would like to thank my dearest frens who have stuck through and put up with mi with my incessant whining, crying and sometimes nonsensical tots.. really thank u for that.. without your constant support to bring me to the right track, i mite hav juz given up on the spot... so i deeply appreciated for it.. i wouldnt say its all smooth now because i cannot take things for granted.. but i will try...

in many ways i have never feel my life as very good, v smooth etc.. i lost my mum not at a young age but at a very vulnerable age.. to date, yes someone's words still embedded deeply in my heart.. i did regret all e time lost with my mum when she was at her most difficult period.. until today, whenever i see my frens having their mum to lean on, to confide in, to always be there for them, there is a twinge of sorrow, pain and regret that nothing in this world can put it back right again... i wish for her to be able to see me walking down the aisle happily one day.. the day will never come but i hope she will be with me on e day when it happens..

thank u to my sis for e constant companionship althouigh i am guilty as charged for not spending enough time with her.. i will try to my best in 2013 to compensate it back..

the opportunity to join a beauty industry opened up a whole new direction for me.. it is what i have always wanted.. to have the chance to do sth relating to my interest, be it showbiz, beauty, entertainment etc etc.. i am sorry that i cldnt stay put at where i should longer but the decision made did make mi into a happier person at e end of year.. although i cannot deny i still miss e place a lot.. i am thankful where e place has brought wonderful memories for me.. having known a bunch of great colleagues which did make a difference in my life in 2012.. i am very glad to have known each and everyone of you, though there are some whom i am of cos sad that we are not keeping in ctc as much as i wanted to.. but if you happened to read this, D, K, SH, YL, S, thanks for stepping into my life, there's always tremendous humor whenever i can get to meet u guys.. and to the remaining bunch of cols, thanks for staying in ctc with me...

as much as some of the revelations i have found out in later half 2012 made me upset, at how whom I once tot they were good ppl can backstab you when you are no longer in their picture.. tis is how much i often misjudge on ppl and lead to my own unhappiness.. but den suan le.. what is done is done.. i will try not to dwell on it... tis is how life goes on.. an impactful advice that i will always remember from someone powerful - in life you get to meet many ppl, good ppl stay and they are the ones who leave an imprint in your life. the remaining who did not are not worth your time to even tink of them... thank you for that advice

there are many things i have yet to learn.. to learn to put down n dun be so obstinate, dun be so opinionated, dun be always thinking on a negative side of ppl.. let go and let live.. its very simple but yet not so simple for someone like me.. i hope time will make me learn..

hope as the years go ahead, i can learn to be a better person to know how to treat ppl better...

happy 2013 to all my frens and family.. i really love you guys a lot muackz

makeup stash

yup, the most uncreative title..

i have been wanting to share some of the fab make up for the longest time and never gotten around to doing it..

here goes...

im always a fanatic for make up.. whenever there is a limited edition, the temptation to buy will creep up against mi... so im always broke T_T

tis rose design is pretty isnt it... there is a small white portion at the top left hand corner which you can use for highlighter purpose.. kind of a two in one solution...

blushers and lipsticks have always been my soft spot.. i couldnt resist the nice colours that pop upfor each season... n the collection grew... no matter how hard i tried to use, i always always cannot finish then new colours took over..
i love the colours from SHU UMERA too! they have fabulous pink shades that i am in love with :D

a very light and quite good coverage for loose powder..
there is also another fab two way powder from Chanel - Matt Lumiere which i do not have it with me now..

i have tried many powders - from the cheapest consumer brand like Cover Girl (does it ring a bell?) Maybelline, ZA to Majolica to M.A.C to YSL, Lancome, CD, Chanel remains my favourite..
They have the finest powder feel and provides good coverage and gives a non greasy feeling throughout the whole day..
thats how much i love their products..

thereafter, i discovered the magic of foundation...
i used to hate foundation a lot.. firstly i find pore clogging.. secondly i find it so hard to apply.. it doesnt even out properly (back then i din noe the magical use of brushes)... especially its a hassle when you are in a rush for work.. lastly i hate the thick creamy feeling on the face.. at least powder texture is so much lighter..
so foundation has been a no-no for me all along..
accidentally i had my first free bottle and decided to try it one morning when i was feeling damn free.. after all, i have heard raves about how gd coverage foundation is.. (believe me, i am not a supporter for cream base product.. i hate BB cream in fact..)
THEN i realised OMG how can this product be so LIGHT and FREE! it blends so well into my skin until i feel that it was the first time i see my complexion to be nearly perfect. (i SWEAR on it )
the one brush, all the past creamy hatred feelings faded away...
it was like discovering the essence to makeup for mi...
from then on, you can guess how many frens are being influenced by mi towards Lancome foundation..
to a point seriously i tink Lancome should pay me for some advertising fee.. because i advocate by it..
but no la, i am not so fortunate enough.. though i still wish one day, they can chance upon perhaps this entry and give me some SPONSORSHIP.. HAHAHAHHAHAHA

and yes Lancome (not that i am totally brainwashed by Lancome but they really do have some amazing products..) again.. an inspiration from a col... i din noe and din bother to check out the usage of a base primer.. after my col explained the logic of using a primer to me and after i have tried on the texture of this base, i was quite captivated.. it smooths out the complexion in general and makes your pores look less visible.. but please do not overly apply it becos the texture is quite smooth which leads you to feeling almost nth.. but over application will make ur makeup result to be cakey.. this comes from several trial and error experiments from myself.. n i tot all the powders cannot sit very well with this primer and i thought oh well, there's goes my money into waste.. not wanting to waste this expensive product, i tried on being less generous and it works quite fine fr then on..
it works especially well with foundation (yup Lancome Teint Miracle again)... if u hav always been trying to find the perfect complexion look, give it a try :) you may like the result..

sorry, this post might have bore those non makeup fanatics and GUYS in general to death :D

THATS ALL!!

food indulgence

another food post...
which is what i have been pretty much doing lately..
meeting frens to check out new interesting places.. fabulous cakes n cookies (which seriously is not one of my craze..), endless brunch sessions, high tea, dinners...

不肥是假的！！！

brunch with my fav gers on a saturday morn... 

went to wild honey for this.. had it once and i tink its quite fab.. but the serving was HUGE... too full for words.. 

but we went to Carpenter and Cook after that still -_- dun ask me how.. but we managed to continue eating thereafter.. 

it was quite a difficult session for mi to wake up.. therefore no pics of me because i did not have the energy for make up.. 

i slept at 530AM BECOS OF MJ.. and had to wake up at 700 (but snooze till 8 den i woke up with a start.. that explains y no make up..) to meet my gers at 9am.. 

an impromptu ketupat cum hokkein mee session at my hse downstairs..
who can imagine 6 ketupats for supper?!?! none of us can actually.. but the very cute bf of xuan ordered 4 more ketupat on top of the 2 we had juz ate..
i am NEVER a ketupat fan.. n i ate the most ketupat record of my own for that night.. although i cant grumble much because the remaining is stomached by the very cute bf of xuan.. HAHAHAHAHA

yes, on top of 6 ketupat, he ordered ONE full chicken, chicken cutlet (by me) and of cos satay and TWO BIG plates of hokkein mee..

the very cute story is the poor bf tot that sian n her hubby were not leaving THAT soon.. he got a shock when he came back from ordering and sian was preparing to leave..
nonetheless, everything became his supper of the supper for that night..

I have to mention this! because jus one try from sian's courtesy and i fell in love with pine garden's brownies..
i am never a sweet tooth person.. but when it comes to these brownies, i cannot resist..
its so soft and chocolaty inside that you MUST definitely try if you have not..

Another cake that makes mi succumb is the chocolate pound cake from Freshly Baked at Killiney Road.. no pic because all were devoured before any pic cld be taken.. or rather i forgot about taking pic la..
thats another paradise food..

now that i have all the time in the world, i went exploring some places with xuan.. she brought me to this coffee place at some old school old school place.. quite vintage and i like it... though im not much a coffee person..
artsy feel.. i like being in artsy feel places.. n wish i had my camera with me.. hahaa

and finally the brunch from the artsy coffeeplace...

i feel like i can really lead a countryside life.. everyday just spend my day away enjoying life as it is... but too bad SG is a place where you will wake up to reality very soon..

continuation to my ramencraze

i think that is my dead spot... i cannot imagine a month without at least ramen once..

at least for now.. its my current food craze..

its funny tat at different stages i find myself liking diff type of food.. and once i like it, i can hav it continuously for a week, a month, 6 months so on and so forth without getting sick of it... thats how crazy i can be..

i have tried a few ramen places - from ramen in sakae sushi, sushi tei, ajisen ramen (i would say it typically sucks, not sth that could satisfy if you have serious ramen craving.. i dun even noe their ramen can be considered as authentic ramen or juz chinese noodles cooked in japanese broth.. cldnt even tink of an apt description for those deceptive ramen in these sushi places..), marutama, IPPUDO, menya musashi etc etc... what i missing is the Champion Ramen that im still completating if i sld give it a try when there are extreme contrasting comments for the ramen there...

conclusion is IPPUDO won my heart right right down... my all time FAV is the spicy miso tonkotsu... i tink it has the most delicious soup broth i have ever tasted for a ramen.. so much that it slurps.. and so much that it had me going back there once, twice a month at least... my frens are the poor souls who have to accompany mi to ippudo 80% of the time they jio mi for dinner.. HAHAHA... especially my POOR SIS.. but she is the most acoomodating becos she likes there as well la...

y am i so crazy about ramen? i dunno either.. i tink it pretty sticks after i was back from japan when i discovered ramen can be so delicious.. it sticks even more after i was introduced to ippudo.. then my craze lives..........

I like how babies touch my life n heart..

one delightful thing that I enjoy doing nearly every week is seeing and playing with the darling ger..

* can't insert pic! becos I cannot figure how to do the stupid google + thingy *

anyways I have learnt how to feed a baby n came to know 原来喂奶是这么的辛苦的。妈妈的伟大是无人可以取代的。

still, to me, babies r the joy of life..

I wish I can get to see all my frens babies as often as I like.. wishes do not come true that easily..

原地踏步

was catching up on all the good frens blog n find that how time flies..
haven been blogging or even bothering to find the time to blog when I hav this tiny tiny spare time to blog..
I guess its all due to major laziness.. n e sudden 词穷.. hahahaa

not tat everything has been boring.. but suddenly I feel I lack e momentum to write anymore.. tots couldn't get translated v well into words.. so I choose to escape n not blog..

I have been to Korea but I hav nv blogged abt it tis whole year.. photos sitting in my camera the longest time n I haven even sort them out.. frankly, I dunno wat I have been busy abt so much do tat I hav stopped my blogging.. I rem how I used to love taking so many photos.. now I'm juz plain lazy.. bought an expensive camera, loving it to max but nv gotten around to fully utilizing it lately.. it sat v alone in e cupboard..

dwelling n tinking for the longest time.. I feel with all the time that has passed n I'm still in square one.. surprisingly I have come to terms with the stagnant events in my life.. though I can't deny fr time to time, the sadness still sneak up on mi.. helpless in not knowing how to move it forward..

there r so many dreams.. all felt extremely unrealistic.. all I did was sitting in my world n envying wat other ppl have done for their lives..

sometimes it's e simplicity that makes the joy in life.. I can nv learn that.. no matter how hard I try, I can nv b a simple ting.. so it leads mi to wondering perhaps if I can shed all away, will I be happier??
actually I will never know.. hahaa

so now I'm making a pact with myself to continue to do things that i always enjoy doing..
I hope amidst my upcoming busy schedule, I can still find e time to take my favourite photos n blog n share.. 

happy valentine's day!!

actually i have many many things to blog about.. and many many photos.. which i cldnt find time to sort through and blog.. very sad indeed..

so i can only blog a HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY to all my lovelies out there.. i remember how we used to set dates to meet.. how we prepare the presents for each other...
but i also understand that things do change over time when we have no choice but to grow up..
i still miss those girly times we spent together during vday.........

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i gradually learnt one thing in life, its the thought that counts.. and it works all e way up to the heart and remembers that thought forever..

its strange enough how i cldnt realli remember how i actually spent my vday for the past few years.. except for the first fateful year i bumped into dear BF.. when i tink now, i have no recollection at how other vdays were spent seriously..
except for a momento one where we cook for each other.. it stayed in my heart and memory forever because it felt the most heartwarming.. no expensive restaurant dinners, no expensive gifts.. but a kawaii to the max plush dog he made for mi as a surprise plus the lunch we cook for each other..
somwhow this memory is much more precious than all the others..

today, he managed another surprise for me which took me totally off guard... very touched at his thought and gesture although a bit heartache at the cost plus the fact that i cldnt keep it forever...
yes, you r rite, gers always like to say flowers r impractical... its a way of telling the guy that the ger cares which is why she din wan to burn a hole in his pocket.. although deep down, there is always a time where the ger will appreciate this gesture very much...

thanks for the surprise because i nv suspect at all that there is a bouquet of lilies awaiting for me at the recep desk when i was summoned over... truely touched n happy of cos.. hahahaa..
sometimes this once in a while thing is what that makes the moment worthwhile..

it is also very true that you will feel the happiest at the least expectation or even better - no expectations..

life can be very simple but humans like to complicate it along e way...

ramendamen craze

Went to this super awesome ramen place at mandarin gallery - ippudo!

Omg! The queue is horrible seriously.. I seldom queue so long for food (if my memory din fail mi) but to b honest, it's kind of worth e wait because e broth is sooooooo good... Though I cannot say e same for e flavoured tamago comparing it to marutama n possibly japan..

Ippudo has like e best broth so far next to the authentic one in Japan.. It's so good until my craving for ramen continues... So much so that I went for ramen again at marutama HAHAHA

I seriously dun understand how ajisen can survive until today with such competitors... I never step my food into ajisen after my second try.. N my second time there was because I have no choice but to accommodate..

Okie so much for my blog post... I'm juz trying to show my presence n to rave abt how nice ippudo has been... Plus its kinda difficult trying to blog using an ipad.. Fingers dun feel like fingers anymore.. Sorry about this crappy post..

festive season celebrations

yes, kind of first post of 2012.. not counting those sale posts...

one year has once again gone by in a flash... i realize the older you get, e faster time passes by...

once again, im here to do a long post because i seem to get into a habit of not blogging for the longest time..

for a while, i find myself wif nth interesting to blog.. crappy life n lost for words..

for no reason today, i suddenly felt inspired to upload some photos that i have taken over the festive season in 2011.. to show off of cos the two cutest babies from my two darling frens..

i <3 these two babies to my utmost heart...
somehow by seeing them, all the troubles for the day flew away.. playing wif them keeps mi happy.. when i c e happiness in their face, it cheers me up tremendously..

had dinner at this place called jpot in vivo city.. recommended by jer.. so there it is for her bday treat... haaa.. e funny part is all of us tot it was a steamboat buffet.. i was preparing myself in the morning not to eat so much for breakfast and lunch... halfway through the day, in e chat, jer den told us that it was ala carte order.. pengsan.. i nearly fainted..
but okie la, otherwise i wldnt noe how many luncheon meat i hav to eat to recoup if it was a steamboat buffet.. basically e whole grp felt that bringing mi to steamboat is a waste of money becos i ate e cheapest food there..
(and what's worse.. i've been craving for luncheon meat ever since tat steamboat.. when BF suggested to have a twosome steamboat at hm, i was so happy that i cld buy an entire can of luncheon meat n have it all by myself.. what happened was when the luncheon meat was bought, we cld not find any can opener at hm.... -_- can u imagine the thousand storey fall of disappointment...)

then i found my love for moscato... i had my first taste of moscato back at a fren's hse.. after hearing SO MANY raves about how nice moscato is.. when i tried for the first time, seriously i was darn disappointed.. how can it even be nice?! so for the longest time, i was wondering izzit because moscato was drank from a normal cup which spoil the taste to the max..
after dinner, we took like forever to reach wine company becos of the many distractions along the way.. this is one of the distractions which took up so much of our time.. hahahaha

all the beautiful lightings along the broadway (is that what its called?)

it actually feels great.. to be taking photos once again.. i haven been taking photos for the longest time.. i dunno y either.. it juz nv happened as frequently as last time anymore..

anyway, back to my moscato... e gers decided to order one moscato since it sld b e mildest among all..

i tried and I LOVE IT!! one of e sweetest wine i have ever tasted and i din resist the sweetness.. (although i felt reali sinful aft drinking...)

actually until now i cldnt figure it out if e first time is reali due to e cup issue... hmmmmm...

its has been a wonderful ending to my 2011, spent wif my dearest gers n their fam... i always like e chill out sessions with them.. and very thankful for my bunch of gers be it JC or sec sch for always being there for me through all the down down periods...

<3 <3 <3 you gers to the max!

Shiseido Pureness Blemish Get

bought too many bottles at one go.. therefore letting this go @ $20

usual R.P is $32

real authentic product from Shiseido and brand new..

please email me @ masaki010184@yahoo.com.sg if you are interested :)

Armani Exchange Watch

bought for a year and wore only for important occasions..

very elegant and sleek design.. suitable especially for night functions..

authenic Armani Exchange watch which comes in the original box and warranty card..

selling @ $100

please email me @ masaki010184@yahoo.com.sg if you are interested :)

Shiseido White Lucent Brightening Serum

selling this at $50

R.P @ about $100

best seller for the white lucent series

its brand new - unopened packaging..

please email me at masaki010184@yahoo.com.sg if you are interested :)

state of confusion

it has been a while...

i found myself with no more  time now to sit down properly to read blogs..

even wif rare moments where i am able to get back hm early, sometimes i cant even bear to spend time in front of my laptop for fear of time dwindling away.. like what i am doing now.. 3 hours juz flew by like tat and i feel as if i have not accomplished anything..

i am beginning to wonder if the jump has been worth it..

i rem how ecstatic i had felt when i cld get into this com.. it was ALMOST like a dream come true.. to be in touch with an industry that i reali reali love.. to learn about products that i love..

up till today, i do enjoy e knowledge that i have gained along e way.. not about the work actually but abt the products im dealing with.. knowing more on how supply chain sector has worked for this type of industry.. to certain extent, this experience will benefit me in many ways.. which is why im still convincing myself everyday to stay on.. to struggle.. no matter how imbalanced my life has become..

its v fast paced.. i cannot deny it... but i always pride myself as someone who can survive in any environment.. even until now i believe in surviving no matter how bad the environment is.. although when i hit the down period, i am reali down... a lot of emotion fluctuation in this job is involved.. the risk of not jeopardising a new launch.. or not buying enough for some products.. or even creating the wrong cover days which nearly led my boss into major despair.. my mistakes overwhelmed mi... i took the blame very badly such that i cldnt get out of it for nearly the entire month...

gradually im starting to tink if it is worth it... to be occupied constantly by one million and one thousand things to submit every week... even when it comes to planning for a holiday, there are so many blocked days that i cant allow myself to go on leave.. needing my frens to accomodate to the dates etc etc etc..
yaa, indeed, where is the work life balance...

i grew more and more bad tempered... such tat ppl had to bear the brunt of my temper especially the close ones.. even frens that i have never reali flared in front of them, i flared and i cried...

frens told mi to measure myself.. frankly i dunno how to measure anymore.. there are times i reali love tis job and i noe there will always b ppl to tell mi you can never find 100% satisfaction in any job.. and its even more difficult to find a job that you love.. however i love the office environment i am in.. the surroundings i am in right now until the official move which i am dreading... but i love the perks that come along wif tis job.. i like it tat i noe what ppl are talking abt when they talk abt makeup... i like dressing nicely to work (yes, v shallow but believe mi, i have never dress nicely to work since my first job until now.. somehow it gives mi a moment of pride..)

so you will wondering right now what exactly is bothering mi.. 工作也有本难念的经...

if you have seen how long since i have blogged, this is how busy i have been until my brain cells are all dead for a more creative post...

And even longer since i indulged myself wif self-absorbed photo taking T_T

dearest delfi, you are badly missed by the family...

and very much by me as well......

since young, i have never envisioned myself to become a dog-lover as i grew up... i was very scared of cats and dogs in the past (i still hate cats A LOT... i will never ever love any cat in my life...)... i used to squeal and avoid at all costs whenever a cat or dog crossed in my path...

when i first met delfi, i was lucky enough to have overcome my fear of dogs a little through the help from shi's dogs ironically.. then the love for her grew surprisingly enough... she wasnt those dogs who will cuddle to you when you are feeling sad or even "sai nai" to you to get your attention.. she's a fierce ger who had e tendency to bite everyone she was not familiar wif... perhaps its e love that is so apparent from the whole family that got me into it as well..

delfi was a bubbly dog when i first saw her who used to twirl round and round around her daddy when he came home.. u can see her excitement when she saw her daddy back home.. that was the love they had for each other and the affinity that bonds them together.. she cldnt slp when her daddy was not home.. she used to whine terribly when she knew that her daddy was not home..

i missed the times when i cld see her leaping and putting her paws on the chair, waiting for us to give her food.. as we fed her each time, she came back for more and more... i missed the times when she used to wander for no reason into the room and responded when dear BF called out to her.. she didnt react much to my calls... i missed the times where she gradually lost her sight, she wld bang her way though the room door if we ever leave a slight opening.. somehow she's very determined when she smelt food somewhere.. even when we hid in the room, she still found her way eventually... then we wld have to push her away many times but she persevered on...

until to a pt where she totally lost her sight and slight sense of smell, she still did silly things that make us laugh and made our days for no particular reason...

she collapsed once when she was fighting a tooth infection and none of us knew.. we were scared shitless and i felt reali heartbroken at tat time when i saw her so robust one wk before and so frail the following wk... i cried........... because i cldnt bear to c her wif a swollen face and wobbly legs........ it was reali reali lucky enough she recovered...

there was one time where i remembered myself sitting in the kitchen feeling very down, i dunno why but i was very certain that delfi circled around me because she knew i was sad.. somehow i was very comforted by her presence...

i never expect myself to feel so deeply for a dog before... i dun even keep any pets right from the start when i was young... back then, i wld never be able to comprehend why would ppl feel so sad over their pets... now i knew, even wif e short span of time spent wif her... its devastating... as devastating enough as losing a family member, because she's part of the family... the love that the family had for her, she is a very fortunate dog already... the continuous care that auntie D devoted to her was way beyond words to describe... i had to admit i reali cant stand the smell of shit and to wash off the shit off her, it was beyond my imagination.. but there were times i still did together wif the help from dear BF and auntie D.. and the even more times that auntie D bear with it and wash her until she was clean...

when she suddenly collapsed this time, i din wan to believe that she wld reali bear to leave us so soon on that fateful day.. i was reali hoping everyday that she cld recover soon and be able to walk like how she used to be... when dear BF told me he didnt tink she cld make it past that day.. i panicked... its e same panic i felt when i received news on my grandfather.. i never made it to see her one last time........................................................

i count my blessings that i hav been given the chance to know you, del del... otherwise i would have missed out the many occasions where you brought joy to the family with your antics... and never get to witness the love the family has shared for you... the older you were, the more adorable you became.. even with the many hassles that came along with your aging hood, there were grumbles but there were never complaints from your family members.. the memories spent wif you remained deeply etched in my heart...........

del del, be happy whenever you will be going.. dun forget your papa whom you love so much, your mummy who has taken very care of you and your siblings who love you unconditionally... they will never forget you... but dun be fierce to other dogs anymore when you are at where you should be okie...
i do miss you too

you are the best dog that ever came in our lives...

* thoughts *

人生完美的事太少
真爱没有输赢只有信任
幸福没有捷径只有经营

back to blogging!

it has been a reali long while since i last blog..

i have been itching to blog for the longest time.. but for the longest time, i found myself with absolutely no time to blog...

seriously, everyday i came home exhausted, so much so that i dun even feel like using my laptop.. i cld not even find any time to read any blogs :( felt myself being very detached from the blogging world.. i used to update myself with all the new posts from all the blogs nearly everyday such that i wish my frens can update their blogs more frequently.. sometimes i wish i hav tis luxury... yet on the contrary, i do not wish to go back to those shithole days once again at the expense of free time..

for an update, yes i have finally gotten myself out of the terrible rut.. i have never felt happier and RELIEVED until e day i left tat terrible and horrible rut... although e most wrenching episode still did happen on that day and since i din blog abt it a few mths back, this shall go back into my memory book... a memory that i hope one day i can scrap it away and forget abt this bitch in my life..

i found myself in a happier environment.. with very supportive colleagues to work with... but the work is reali tough.. and so time consuming that i can work from 9am till 9pm near to non stop in ofc.. its amazing.. becos i cld not recall myself being tis hardworking in the past... frens told me "welcome to the real working world finally" HAHAHA.. and xuan told me she nv has to wait for me before because of work.. which undeniably is very true.. its always ME who has to wait for her... haha

getting so rusty wif blogging until i cldnt tink of any interesting enough things to blog abt... actually i do have a post to update.. that is way past due... so probably not to harp on that anymore.. time whizzed by damn frigging fast... i gave myself a month's break... but honestly, i dunno where tis one mth has flew to.. i felt i had not accomplished anything in this one mth's break and i had to force myself back into the reality of working... all i rem was it had been a great month where i can slp at anytime i wan.. i can wake up naturally without the need of an alarm clock.. life like that is funnily fulfilling even though i mite not have done anything worth mentioning at all..

except the jb trip i had wif my gers... it felt like umpteen yrs (actually i tink its reali umpteen yrs but i refused to acknowledge how many yrs exactly was the ago...) ago where we stepped into jb together for the first time.. the anticipation to go wif the gers is still there and very fresh... i reali missed those days where we were frigging young n carefree.. im glad we made it to jb together.. it was a wonderful time spent together shopping in the mall..

and also for the tw trip with dear BF.. its a much different trip from previous trips.. the time spent trekking to scenic places wif him made everything worthwhile... its especially breathtaking at the waterfall wif him beside me.. the beauty of it astounded me... then the beauty of 花莲 astounded me even more.. the endearing part is to share the beauty of the places with him..
and guess what, i miss tw now o.O

now im wondering if i can take a yr end trip to tw again??? **cross fingers and hope** im missing cold cold weather...

it feels good actually to be able to find some time today to sit in front of my laptop, typing these words out... although i know all in all, its a quite nonsensical post.. thanks for reading until now.. hahaa..

lastly, ending off wif a self absorbed pic of me.. haha!

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to dearest yun - part 2

all in the months of preparations had came to a close in a flash in one day...

a lot of feelings involved especially on the exact day, seeing my best buddy changing her status officially to mrs tan..

i tot i can grow to be stronger after being involved in other close buddies wedding..

i tot its as simple as trying to control the emotions from flooding, just try my might..

i tot aa, i have improved a lot by not dropping any tears when i watched e video montage...

but it broke me when i hear ur speech on stage... the uncontrollable urge to flood caved in n e floodgate opened... even until today when i replayed ur speech in my head, when the memories of our grp friendship flash back, the tears have a way of their own to fill my eyes..
i was even at the table, half praying to myself "pls pls, dun say so much touching stuff, else my tears cannot stop.."

then my dear BF said its abnormal if i dun cry -_-

but in e end im glad u did.. becos its indeed a very good speech...



i am truthfully and awfully touched by ur words last nite... especially Friends Forever... it takes a day to make a lot of frens but a lifetime to find true frens that will stick to u... and u and my many other sisters r worth a lifetime to keep in my life...

juz like u hav been to be there for me through gd and bad, i will also be there for u through all the good and bad (but of cos many many good for u in the future...)

honestly i even had that momentary moment of the urge to cry when i saw u hugging ur mum in the morning.. so i escaped into the room before i embarassed myself further..

and lastly i wanna thank you for giving me the chance to be your jie mei for ur BIG day.. hence i was able to participate in the many discussions and preparations for your wedding..

the preparations towards your wedding has been one of the most enjoyable process throughout this period of time to keep me going through the horrible work..

thanks for the photo shoot back in NUS.. it brought back many good memories...

thanks for the many many things you have brought to my life ever since u came into it..

it is, in very truthful words, that i have attended one of the best weddings in my life.. and very happy to know (even though its juz momentarily) JM's decent bunch of bros on ur wedding day..

lastly, thanks to the bunch of jiemeis that stay in my life throughout :D

to dearest yun

its time to get excited once again for a lifetime close buddy once-in-a-lifetime event...

all the planning and preparation has gotten me quite excited amidst the busy till siao work...

what is e most impt is to see tis close buddy to be blissfully married n stay blissfully happy in her marriage life thereafter.. i tink tats one of e most a woman can ask for in their life - to find a good partner to 扶持 till the end... although i know she has her own reservations, dear yun - it will b FINE.. just be urself..

its v funny how our friendship started.. for the last two years of sec sch life, we had never been close.. though we were just seated three seats away from each other.. fact is we barely exchanged much words.. because mi being the more outspoken and daring one during those days and she being the meek and quiet ger in class (LAST TIME, hahaha), we had very minimal interaction.. to the fact also that she was seldom able to join us during outings which contributed to the lack of interaction..

but our fate started (i reali forgot exactly how..) when we went to the same JC together after first three months.. for dunno wat reason, somehow we seem like those long lost frens managed to find each other once again in the sea of lost souls (okie, v drama...), we clicked........ MADLY........ we started our incessant chatting over the phone after sch... worked the same part time jobs during our sch holidays... and because i find tat its v comfortable to be just with her.. i can tell her anything under the sun, the moon or the stars... she's a simple ger with the patience as BIG as the ocean to listen to my complains and woes... in fact, i tink she's one of those gers where there are hardly anyone who will find it very difficult to get along with.. she has never thrown her temper at mi before even when i was in my obnoxious mood at times...

she contributed to the many best parts in my jc life thereafter.. until today... it gratifies me alot that we stay together through so many years even though work and relationship have indeed driven us apart (err, slightly??)... changed our thinking... changed our lifestyles.. but the effort is unspeakable...

u noe, i still misses those days a lot where the two of us will impromptu-ly meet up for our favourite movie date.. and scare ourselves to death wif those horrible thai, korean, japanese horror movie.. at first there's still rong who joined us.. subsequently it became juz me n yun to those horror movies.. the movies we have watched together are uncountable and our taste for movies are so alike so much so that we spent nearly every wk watching movie together... those times in Dark Waters, A Tale of Two Sisters, Saw (dunno saw no wat liao becos there r simply too many SAWs), Hills Have Eyes, Resident Evil (which subsequently we din watch 3 & 4 together anymore) The Eye, Many Thais horror movies and the recent Drag Me To Hell.. many many more la.. cannot rem le.. already say memory no gd.. those r reali gd memories where i would hide my eyes n ask her "how? how? how le?" den both of us wld scream hysterically in e cinema and felt shiok abt it becos we dun care who were irritated wif us... when i started to tink back, its worth the nostalgia...

the phone conversations we had in those days that always warrant either her parents or my parents to nag at us to stop our conversations.. now becos of various reasons, we hardly do... the fact tat i always cry to her at the lowest pt in my life, she's always there to listen...
i still treasure the sometimes impromptu chilling sessions when both of us can make it due to her erratic work hours previously.. work reali has a way in changing many ppl's life...

to my dearest fren in this lifetime - i hope i can still get to be frens with you the next lifetime, the next next and the next next next and forever and ever... thanks to fate for bringing us together else i will never have the chance to get to know you even better...
i hope we can stay this way... no matter marriage, family or work or whatever is in the way, it will never obstruct our road of friendship.. here i wish you to an eternally happy marriage and i will stand out for u together when your hubby bully u wif his eloquent talking (HAHAHA)


work has in many ways make us more n more tired to spend the time together as well as the time being divided to spend with our partners...
nevertheless thanks for making me part of your circle and staying in mine :) i do love u always.. ha ha ha..