since young, i have never envisioned myself to become a dog-lover as i grew up... i was very scared of cats and dogs in the past (i still hate cats A LOT... i will never ever love any cat in my life...)... i used to squeal and avoid at all costs whenever a cat or dog crossed in my path...
when i first met delfi, i was lucky enough to have overcome my fear of dogs a little through the help from shi's dogs ironically.. then the love for her grew surprisingly enough... she wasnt those dogs who will cuddle to you when you are feeling sad or even "sai nai" to you to get your attention.. she's a fierce ger who had e tendency to bite everyone she was not familiar wif... perhaps its e love that is so apparent from the whole family that got me into it as well..
delfi was a bubbly dog when i first saw her who used to twirl round and round around her daddy when he came home.. u can see her excitement when she saw her daddy back home.. that was the love they had for each other and the affinity that bonds them together.. she cldnt slp when her daddy was not home.. she used to whine terribly when she knew that her daddy was not home..
i missed the times when i cld see her leaping and putting her paws on the chair, waiting for us to give her food.. as we fed her each time, she came back for more and more... i missed the times when she used to wander for no reason into the room and responded when dear BF called out to her.. she didnt react much to my calls... i missed the times where she gradually lost her sight, she wld bang her way though the room door if we ever leave a slight opening.. somehow she's very determined when she smelt food somewhere.. even when we hid in the room, she still found her way eventually... then we wld have to push her away many times but she persevered on...
until to a pt where she totally lost her sight and slight sense of smell, she still did silly things that make us laugh and made our days for no particular reason...
she collapsed once when she was fighting a tooth infection and none of us knew.. we were scared shitless and i felt reali heartbroken at tat time when i saw her so robust one wk before and so frail the following wk... i cried........... because i cldnt bear to c her wif a swollen face and wobbly legs........ it was reali reali lucky enough she recovered...
there was one time where i remembered myself sitting in the kitchen feeling very down, i dunno why but i was very certain that delfi circled around me because she knew i was sad.. somehow i was very comforted by her presence...
i never expect myself to feel so deeply for a dog before... i dun even keep any pets right from the start when i was young... back then, i wld never be able to comprehend why would ppl feel so sad over their pets... now i knew, even wif e short span of time spent wif her... its devastating... as devastating enough as losing a family member, because she's part of the family... the love that the family had for her, she is a very fortunate dog already... the continuous care that auntie D devoted to her was way beyond words to describe... i had to admit i reali cant stand the smell of shit and to wash off the shit off her, it was beyond my imagination.. but there were times i still did together wif the help from dear BF and auntie D.. and the even more times that auntie D bear with it and wash her until she was clean...
when she suddenly collapsed this time, i din wan to believe that she wld reali bear to leave us so soon on that fateful day.. i was reali hoping everyday that she cld recover soon and be able to walk like how she used to be... when dear BF told me he didnt tink she cld make it past that day.. i panicked... its e same panic i felt when i received news on my grandfather.. i never made it to see her one last time........................................................
i count my blessings that i hav been given the chance to know you, del del... otherwise i would have missed out the many occasions where you brought joy to the family with your antics... and never get to witness the love the family has shared for you... the older you were, the more adorable you became.. even with the many hassles that came along with your aging hood, there were grumbles but there were never complaints from your family members.. the memories spent wif you remained deeply etched in my heart...........
del del, be happy whenever you will be going.. dun forget your papa whom you love so much, your mummy who has taken very care of you and your siblings who love you unconditionally... they will never forget you... but dun be fierce to other dogs anymore when you are at where you should be okie...
i do miss you too
you are the best dog that ever came in our lives...
